And so my story unfolds, in what appears to be a poem but clearly should not be. Too bad I despise stream on consciousness for its unreadability. Such is life; the choice to ignore things that we dislike doing ends up ultimately making life harder.
I'm leaving for FL pretty soon, which is exciting. Though I haven't gotten as far on my reading list as I would like to be pre-trip. This list looks like:
The Gunslinger series
(Sixth and Seventh Harry Potter?)
The Golden Compass series(Before the movie!)
(The Hitchhiker's guide?)
Night Watch series(After the movie!)
Runaway Jury
The Food Taster
Suggestions? Concerns? Utter loathing of something on my list?
Lyric of the Day:
"Hey
I used have a little bit of a plan
Used to
Have a concept of where I stand
But that concept slipped right out of my hands
Now I don't really even know who I am
Yo, what do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free and
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen with me"
-Fort Minor:"Believe Me"
Random Story of The Day:
Gtalk is pretty great. So is AIM.
Dinesh: so yeah, we're going to have a big movie night this summer at some point; wedding crashers and KKHH back to back
Ekta: KKHH? ...
Dinesh: Kuch Kuch Hota Hai
Ekta: I know, I'm just.. are you serious?
Me: so here's the plan...(the plan)
Collins: genius
Collins: it is perfect
Collins: jk
Me: jk as in we have a problem?
Collins: nah nah
Me: ok, you scared the shit out of me
Collins: sorry sorry
Me: there was a big "FUCKKKK!!!!" that exploded in my mind
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Monday, June 25, 2007
Walking with my shadow at Night(Part 2)
Walking down to Regents another choice;
Should I pass by Patterson,
hovercraft-building and midnight math "raids".
Nope, those experiences were all about grades.
So towards Stamp I trek,
A walk almost too familiar by now.
"Friday nights at CP", Rocky Horror at the Hoff,
Dinner before Gems, all went down there.
Past the stadium that looms to my right,
A trigger for thinking my mementos.
Shirts from Orientation, Blackout, and Relay,
All remain safely in my closet.
Right in front of stamp a new choice,
A three way fork in my path.
Not the hill to the right that I hate,
nor though the various levels do I go.
Cutting to the left path,
past what will always be the "Comm building",
courtyards where Maryland day tents were,
a place where ninjas rushed performers once.
Across Campus drive I journey.
Its amazing to think to myself,
that once that was the one part
of this entire campus that I knew.
(And from Magic of all things)
Past "Stonehenge" I have to travel,
Remembering all that happened in GEMS102.
To think that all those presentations
led to me doing Icebreakers with my own group.
In front of McKeldin I pause.
Research for Islam and Gemstone,
Undergraduate research day,
And being there for friends.
Booksales on the steps of Tydings,
104 discussion in Key about SAHDS.
I find myself slightly amazed,
One semester has made these places have meaning.
Far to the left I see the chapel,
A place of life and my initiation into Gemstone;
A reminder of human mortality;
A symbol that happiness can exist in this world.
I walk towards the Commons shop,
where hours were spent finding cake ingredients,
making sure to avoid the Point of Failure.
Well the physical place, at least.
Susquehanna stand before me,
The last memory on my journey.
Cramming for Physics tests during lectures
even though my successes proved futile.
As I take the elevator up, I think;
When next will I remember all of these things?
My answer is bittersweet; probably not too soon.
Nite Ride will make this journey a thing of the past.
Lyric of the Day:
"This is the point from which I will die and succeed
Living the struggle, I know I'm alive when I bleed
From now on it can never be the same as before
Cause the place I'm from doesn't exist anymore"
-Immortal Technique:"Point of No Return"
Random Story of The Day:
The best moments on AIM in a while:
a black comet: this is pathetic
justbobdanish: me or you?
Elan: whats happening?
me: not much; making monkeys/cutting paper
Elan: cool cool
me: you?
Elan: working, kinda
reflecting on my life
and basically i figure i need to be more awesome
Should I pass by Patterson,
hovercraft-building and midnight math "raids".
Nope, those experiences were all about grades.
So towards Stamp I trek,
A walk almost too familiar by now.
"Friday nights at CP", Rocky Horror at the Hoff,
Dinner before Gems, all went down there.
Past the stadium that looms to my right,
A trigger for thinking my mementos.
Shirts from Orientation, Blackout, and Relay,
All remain safely in my closet.
Right in front of stamp a new choice,
A three way fork in my path.
Not the hill to the right that I hate,
nor though the various levels do I go.
Cutting to the left path,
past what will always be the "Comm building",
courtyards where Maryland day tents were,
a place where ninjas rushed performers once.
Across Campus drive I journey.
Its amazing to think to myself,
that once that was the one part
of this entire campus that I knew.
(And from Magic of all things)
Past "Stonehenge" I have to travel,
Remembering all that happened in GEMS102.
To think that all those presentations
led to me doing Icebreakers with my own group.
In front of McKeldin I pause.
Research for Islam and Gemstone,
Undergraduate research day,
And being there for friends.
Booksales on the steps of Tydings,
104 discussion in Key about SAHDS.
I find myself slightly amazed,
One semester has made these places have meaning.
Far to the left I see the chapel,
A place of life and my initiation into Gemstone;
A reminder of human mortality;
A symbol that happiness can exist in this world.
I walk towards the Commons shop,
where hours were spent finding cake ingredients,
making sure to avoid the Point of Failure.
Well the physical place, at least.
Susquehanna stand before me,
The last memory on my journey.
Cramming for Physics tests during lectures
even though my successes proved futile.
As I take the elevator up, I think;
When next will I remember all of these things?
My answer is bittersweet; probably not too soon.
Nite Ride will make this journey a thing of the past.
Lyric of the Day:
"This is the point from which I will die and succeed
Living the struggle, I know I'm alive when I bleed
From now on it can never be the same as before
Cause the place I'm from doesn't exist anymore"
-Immortal Technique:"Point of No Return"
Random Story of The Day:
The best moments on AIM in a while:
a black comet: this is pathetic
justbobdanish: me or you?
Elan: whats happening?
me: not much; making monkeys/cutting paper
Elan: cool cool
me: you?
Elan: working, kinda
reflecting on my life
and basically i figure i need to be more awesome
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Interlude
Part of me wants to finish that silly poem, part of me realizes it could go on for a couple more posts. I'll decide later I guess :P
Today was my first day without anything to do. No prior engagements, nothing planned to do in my apartment or on campus. So after playing Tales of Symphonia for a while, and picking up the Gunslinger for a couple minutes, I decided to clean up my hard drive. Apparently I only have 1 Gig of free space on my main hard drive and 3 GB on my secondary. I guess tomorrow I'll organize my music/fix up my Itunes...
Lyric of the Day:
"Please sleep, my darling, sleep
Your cry for inspiration
Never reaches ears on distant stars
And every night, our lonely planet
Slides across the universe
And I won't pretend I understand"
-+44:"Little Death"
Random Story of The Day:
A conversation at the pool:
Me: Swimming is fun.
ET: I dunno, I think I might go get my book.
Me: No one reads at the pool...
ET: They are (points to an elderly couple reading)
Me: I'm sorry, no one under 70 reads at the pool.
ET: (nods to the people next to us) Well apparently all people our age do is hit on girls and make out in the pool
Me: ...which is probably more entertaining than your idea
Today was my first day without anything to do. No prior engagements, nothing planned to do in my apartment or on campus. So after playing Tales of Symphonia for a while, and picking up the Gunslinger for a couple minutes, I decided to clean up my hard drive. Apparently I only have 1 Gig of free space on my main hard drive and 3 GB on my secondary. I guess tomorrow I'll organize my music/fix up my Itunes...
Lyric of the Day:
"Please sleep, my darling, sleep
Your cry for inspiration
Never reaches ears on distant stars
And every night, our lonely planet
Slides across the universe
And I won't pretend I understand"
-+44:"Little Death"
Random Story of The Day:
A conversation at the pool:
Me: Swimming is fun.
ET: I dunno, I think I might go get my book.
Me: No one reads at the pool...
ET: They are (points to an elderly couple reading)
Me: I'm sorry, no one under 70 reads at the pool.
ET: (nods to the people next to us) Well apparently all people our age do is hit on girls and make out in the pool
Me: ...which is probably more entertaining than your idea
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Walking with my shadow at Night(Part 1)
Two in the morning and I return to campus,
The place where I've spent my last year.
A place, by now, so familiar;
I feel I'll never forget it.
The HHP is the first thing I pass,
"Symbolic" I think as I smile to myself.
My continuing tradition of Badminton
housed in the same building as Ballroom
Going up to the stairs near the pool,
The scent of chlorine in the air.
Embarrassment, Regret, Hope, Self-Amusement,
Many thoughts past my mind being here.
I pause as I walk past the Diner;
Memories of countless dinners with friends,
Literal hundreds of times shared;
some amusing and others the opposite.
Straight ahead, I see Ellicott,
My near past and future neatly rolled in one.
Looking towards the coming year,
with the joy from the last still not gone.
Soccer fields to the left,
where once we sledded.
Now, summer has come
and things are changed.
Late nights we've spent,
hurriedly taking the elevator from the eight floor,
an then running though building's front door,
all at the reception of "stadium side"
I look ahead and see the paths diverge,
multiple paths to the same end,
with different experiences on your journey
seem almost poetic in their very existence.
To the right I could pass the CSPAC,
Where I've invited myself to several plays,
Who knows when next I'll go.
Perhaps some friends of mine will be on stage.
Instead I choose the path usually traveled,
that is more known and that feels safer.
Returning to the known?
Seems that even my adventurous spirit can waiver.
Walking down to Regents another choice;
Should I pass by Patterson,
hovercraft-building was enjoyable
So towards Stamp I trek,
A walk almost too familiar by now.
"Friday nights at CP", Rocky Horror at the Hoff,
Dinner before Gems, all went down there.
(To be continued...)
Lyric of the Day:
"When will stupid learn
Fire's gonna burn
Think of consequence
Then you move when its your turn"
-Weezer:"Haunt You Every Day"
Random Story of The Day:
I love when I feel comfortable enough with a friend to preface an AIM conversation with "I apologize in advance for the needless mocking of you I am about to engage in." Sorry Lim, but you know it was hilarious.
Also "macking babes" and "making babies" are two letters off, thats kinda interesting. You learn many lessons when talking to TKO online :P
The place where I've spent my last year.
A place, by now, so familiar;
I feel I'll never forget it.
The HHP is the first thing I pass,
"Symbolic" I think as I smile to myself.
My continuing tradition of Badminton
housed in the same building as Ballroom
Going up to the stairs near the pool,
The scent of chlorine in the air.
Embarrassment, Regret, Hope, Self-Amusement,
Many thoughts past my mind being here.
I pause as I walk past the Diner;
Memories of countless dinners with friends,
Literal hundreds of times shared;
some amusing and others the opposite.
Straight ahead, I see Ellicott,
My near past and future neatly rolled in one.
Looking towards the coming year,
with the joy from the last still not gone.
Soccer fields to the left,
where once we sledded.
Now, summer has come
and things are changed.
Late nights we've spent,
hurriedly taking the elevator from the eight floor,
an then running though building's front door,
all at the reception of "stadium side"
I look ahead and see the paths diverge,
multiple paths to the same end,
with different experiences on your journey
seem almost poetic in their very existence.
To the right I could pass the CSPAC,
Where I've invited myself to several plays,
Who knows when next I'll go.
Perhaps some friends of mine will be on stage.
Instead I choose the path usually traveled,
that is more known and that feels safer.
Returning to the known?
Seems that even my adventurous spirit can waiver.
Walking down to Regents another choice;
Should I pass by Patterson,
hovercraft-building was enjoyable
So towards Stamp I trek,
A walk almost too familiar by now.
"Friday nights at CP", Rocky Horror at the Hoff,
Dinner before Gems, all went down there.
(To be continued...)
Lyric of the Day:
"When will stupid learn
Fire's gonna burn
Think of consequence
Then you move when its your turn"
-Weezer:"Haunt You Every Day"
Random Story of The Day:
I love when I feel comfortable enough with a friend to preface an AIM conversation with "I apologize in advance for the needless mocking of you I am about to engage in." Sorry Lim, but you know it was hilarious.
Also "macking babes" and "making babies" are two letters off, thats kinda interesting. You learn many lessons when talking to TKO online :P
Friday, June 15, 2007
Conflicting Interests
Lately I've been kinda busy. Whether its doing HW for Accounting, hanging at Ryan's until unreasonable hours in the morning, or having lunch with Ammar, TKO, or Michelle. Working for Gemstone has also been a significant part of what I do, and while it can get fairly repetitive the flexibility of my job has been worth it. Plus I get to work with the incoming freshman!
Class has been entertaining, as I guess with good company even the most repetitive class can become something you look forward to. I'm not going to say that passing notes with ET has made this one of my most enjoyable classes, but it kinda has. I'm doing fairly well in it, considering I have an A as of now.
As great as things are now, I'll admit that I'm starting to miss being able to hang out with my friends. Elan and Collins have gone off to work and on vacation. Joe, Ryan, Jen, and a bunch of other people have 9-5s which means getting together is limited to the weekends. Yikes, Jason, and Aziz are all in other states. This makes me want the summer to move a little faster.
But then comes days like today where I find myself wishing the summer to slow down. I want more days at the pool with Ekta. More chance encounters with Ammar, Sarah, and TKO. More Aim conversations with Joe and Elan. With the scent of chlorine still in my hair, I want another of today.
I wish I knew what I wanted.
Lyric of the Day:
"Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers "
-Eminem:"Like Toy Soldiers"
Random Story of The Day:
Ryan and I went to Rita's after hanging out for the day. When it gets time to order the girl serving us to take our order, she takes his and, without a pause, mine.
A second later she comes back with our orders and asks "Are you seperate or together?". Ryan's friend who is working in the back yells out,"They're definitely together!". The girl smiles and gives us an amused look, then gets our seperate reciepts.
Class has been entertaining, as I guess with good company even the most repetitive class can become something you look forward to. I'm not going to say that passing notes with ET has made this one of my most enjoyable classes, but it kinda has. I'm doing fairly well in it, considering I have an A as of now.
As great as things are now, I'll admit that I'm starting to miss being able to hang out with my friends. Elan and Collins have gone off to work and on vacation. Joe, Ryan, Jen, and a bunch of other people have 9-5s which means getting together is limited to the weekends. Yikes, Jason, and Aziz are all in other states. This makes me want the summer to move a little faster.
But then comes days like today where I find myself wishing the summer to slow down. I want more days at the pool with Ekta. More chance encounters with Ammar, Sarah, and TKO. More Aim conversations with Joe and Elan. With the scent of chlorine still in my hair, I want another of today.
I wish I knew what I wanted.
Lyric of the Day:
"Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers "
-Eminem:"Like Toy Soldiers"
Random Story of The Day:
Ryan and I went to Rita's after hanging out for the day. When it gets time to order the girl serving us to take our order, she takes his and, without a pause, mine.
A second later she comes back with our orders and asks "Are you seperate or together?". Ryan's friend who is working in the back yells out,"They're definitely together!". The girl smiles and gives us an amused look, then gets our seperate reciepts.
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