My Last First Day

Today marks a milestone in my life. This is the last first day of a new semester(Grad school doesn't count since you just keep doing your research during breaks). College, which is supposed to be the time of your life, is coming to and end. And I have no idea what the hell I'm doing.

Applying to five graduate schools was probably a bad idea. But I guess when you get down to it and realize that there are only so many places that you want to move to thats what happens. I'm going to start working on contingency plans and applying to companies that might hire me.

Today is the first time I've ever had an all business schedule for a day, and it feels nice. Not that I don't have to take notes, but Finance is a lot more reproduce-able for me than Engineering.

My 3-hour breaks will be unproductive I fear, but at least sometimes it woks out and you get to have lunch with cute girls. Maybe I'll just use this as reading time...

Lyric of the Day:
"(Keep on feeling)
I only wanna be your one life stand
(Keep on feeling)
Tell me do you stand by your whole man"
-Hot Chip:"One Life Stand"

Random Story of The Day:
My roommate and I have been betting on playoff games, with the loser having to shotgun a beer for each touchdown(rounded up) that their team loses by.

The results(me v. him)

Ravens(3)-Colts(20): I drink three
Chargers(14)-Jets(17): I drink one
Jets(17)-Colts(30): I drink two
Vikings(28)-Saints(31): I drink one

Looks like this weekend is going to be a great weekend. Thank goodness we don't give a shit about the NFC.

Note to Future Self: Write the book about the dreamer. That will have a great screenplay.

A day in the life

So I'm sick. And I have a test in 2 days. This is how I roll.
Lyric of the Day:
"It may not mean nothing to y’all,
but understand nothing was done for me,
so i don’t plan on stopping at all,
I want this sh-t forever man, ever man, ever man"
-Drake:"Forever"

Random Story of The Day:
Today my friend was prepping for her interview. We were talking about how you are supposed to respond when they ask you questions.

Her: So, if they say m "What was the last book you read?"
Me: Eclipse
Her: Yeah, I don't know if you should tell them that, or the last intellectual book you read
Me: Like Three Cups of Tea in Tehran
Her: You realize that "Three Cups of Tea" and "Reading Lolita in Tehran" are two different books, right?
Me: That's why I just go with Eclipse

Note to Future Self: At least you don't Facebook stalk people :D

Making a responsible choice for my future

Business Law kinda sucks. I hate reading. I hate taking notes. I hate words. At least this just means next semester will be better(14 credits!).

Lyric of the Day:
"I wish I could save you
I wish I could say to you
I'm not going nowhere
I wish I could say to you
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright
It's gonna be alright "
-Kelly Clarkson:"Save You"

Random Story of The Day:
I was hanging out with on of my friends and her high school friends from Hopkins. Things were going pretty well, and I started chatting up one of her cute single friends. I was spitting my hot fire when my roommate flipped one of the meat pieces on the grill, which caused an avalanche on the grill(we were at a Korean BBQ).

"And that is why Bioengineers are not real engineers", I say laughing.

The cute girl I was talking to gives a sigh.

"What?"

"You don't think I'm a real engineer?", she asks slightly irritated.

Damn. There goes that.

Note to Future Self: He who hesitates is lost. And that is you.

I'm getting to old for this shit

So I'm one year older today. I kind of feel it. Or maybe that's just the feeling of knowing that a phase of your life is changing. The transition to college was one thing, but going into the real world is another. I will be constantly angry at how easy past me had it.

Back to learning about torts.
Lyric of the Day:
"I've seen love
And I follow the speed in the starlight
I've seen love
And I follow the speed in the starswept night"
-Interpol:"Pace Is The Trick"

Random Story of The Day:
Someone texted my friend on his birthday, "Hope you get some of that Jeremiah".
His girlfriend saw it and got angry.
Jerimiah sings a song called "Birthday Sex" XD

Note to Future Self: Watching Food Network while tipsy and playing Magic are the simple stuff you have to enjoy.

Faith

Before I left for home this winter, I had an interesting discussion with my roommates. Well, I guess not a discussion, more of a "try to explain what you mean" session. Even though I have kind of a mixed up religious background, I still have faith that there is something greater than us. To me, this serves as a more powerful driving force than how others perceive me, which in comparison (in my head) is a shallower existence. But I guess this may just be the result of going to church for Christmas and to temple for New Years.
Lyric of the Day:
"They can say whatever
I'ma do whatever
No pain is forever
Yup, you know this"
-Rihanna:"Hard"

Random Story of The Day:
I went to lunch with a couple of my friends to a local sushi place. At the end of our meal, the hostess approached one of my friends, and asked him if he could fix their TV. Three minutes later our entire party was at the TV and had gotten it to work.

Note to Future Self: You are old enough for people to do aarti for you.

The consequences

Just lost my business 4.0. In a class that I had a fairly solid A in. And the only business class that I was not worried about this semester. Did I mention the difference between my grade and an A were the group projects?

Hopefully things get better as this winter progress.

Lyric of the Day:
"You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)"
-Beyonce:"Sweet Dreams"

Random Story of The Day:
As I read New Moon on the plane, a 14 year old behind me started looking over my shoulder. I had to shush her so she did not spoil it for me.

Note to Future Self: Back to the drawing board. Just remember when you had an eraser and absurd amounts of choice.

The End Complete

Went to my last Gems Formal. It was pretty fun, especially with satellite events happening.

The semester has been exciting. Met a whole new set of people through group projects and got to know some people a little better.

Lyric of the Day:
"Lonely Mr. Kholi from Los Angeles
Came to Punjab on one bent knee
He had a green card, new house, big cash
So made a wish with every fallen lash
For you to do the journey with him
To smile when he got home ask how his day had been
He wants you by his side in joy and strife
Poor Mr. Kholi he has no life without wife. "
-Bride and Prejudice:"No Life without Wife"

Random Story of The Day:
One of my friends lost her phone and keys after deciding at the bar that she just needed to walk home alone. Crazy college kids.

Note to Future Self: You can convince people that you are on a beer pong scholarship.

Racey Days, once again

Applying for grants and grad schools is actually taxing. I've been rolling through this semester carefree for the most part, but these applications are kind of important. Doesn't help that my procrastination has led to a two-test week when NSF is due. At least next semester will be awesome.

Lyric of the Day:
"Control yourself,
Take only what you need from it"
-MGMT:"Kids"

Random Story of The Day:
Today in my controls class we have an exam(actually in 15 mins). I'm in the room early looking over my notes, so I decide to put on my headphones and listen to music. Only problem was that I didn't plug in my headphones. And I didn't realize that they were unplugged. I just blasted MGMT in a class of studying engineers for like 10 minutes.

Note to Future Self: Sometimes you just need to see different people.

Dead Tired

Saw James Joyce's The Dead. It was extremely good, but maybe I'm just a sucker for musicals or well organized plays or a combination of the two. I guess I enjoy insightful, yet poignantly depressing performances.

Now I have to take and exam and finish a homework. Then start a bunch of scholarship applications.

On the plus side I';m heading up to Baltimore tomorrow to see The Used. I guess things aren't all bad.

Lyric of the Day:
"Well, you can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold
You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold
You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin, yeah
Now you just say, 'Oh, Romeo, yeah, you know
I used to have a scene with him'"
-The Killers:"Romeo and Juliet"

Random Story of The Day:
Today I got a text from my friend inviting me to see a movie. As I got excited and got dressed, I called to get details on when we were leaving. I called her phone, but it went straight to voice mail. I double checked the message and realized that the text was two hours old, and the last show was starting in five minutes.

Note to Future Self: Stop getting excited every time WOTC has a job opening in the design department.

The search continues

I have to figure out where/what I'm doing. But at least I'm a productive procrastinator.

Lyric of the Day:
"So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down"
-Jay Sean: "Down"

Random Story of The Day:
Apparently some guy was in our campus library masturbating in front of students. He was arrested after ejaculating on this girl's back while she was studying. If someone came on me I would just be confused.

Note to Future Self: Big Blue is it, kid.

Destiny is calling me

I'm at a part of my life where I'm not sure what to do. Grad school or a job? Stay here or get the hell out of this region? Am I in it to win it?

At least I know that I'm a concrete random learner. Or I think I am.
Lyric of the Day:
"Coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all"
-The Killers:"Mr. Brightside"

Random Story of The Day:
Today at work we played "I love my neighbour". I was the only person who stood up when my co-worker said "I love my neighbour who has a drinking problem". FML

Note to Future Self: Voice your opinions. Being passive-aggressive is lame.

Disney and Marvel

So apparently sometimes you should just follow the Little Mermaid song. It works for everyone else it seems.

Lyric of the Day:
"Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on"
-Journey:"Mignight Train"

Random Story of The Day:
Continuing my previous cute couple story thing...

One of my college friends was working on biology homework until five in the morning. When she was done, she decided to go to sleep and picked her stuff up of the floor. A guy who was taking the same class and was a pretty good friend was on her bed with his text book. In her exhausted state, she decided that he would leave if she kissed him on the cheek. As she went for his cheek, due to height differences and a miscalculation on her part she ended up kissing dangerously close to his lips. After a moment of confusion he responded "I thought you were more demure". They've been going out for the past two years, and it all started with an accident :P

Note to Future Self: Grab rebounds, like Shaq.

Perspective

Today I caught up with Yohance. It seems like as time has gone on we end up seeing less and less of each other, but I'm glad our friendship persists.

Lyric of the Day:
"Memories fade,
like looking through a fogged mirror
Decisions to decisions are made and not fought
But I thought,
this wouldn't hurt a lot.
I guess not"
-MGMT: "Kids"

Random Story of The Day:
My friend and I were talking about sports teams.

Me: Shaq in Pheonix last year was a mistake.
Him: Yeah, but you know Lebron better get a ring this year or he's leaving.
Me: Yeah. Did you hear that Big Ben went to Detroit?
Him: Wait, Big Ben?
Me: Yeah, Ben Wallace is back with the Pistons.
Him: Oh, I thought you meant Ben Rothelsberger.
Me: Does Detroit even have a football team?
Him: Uh yeah, the Lions still count.

(Last Year the Lions did not win a game. This was an NFL record for least wins.)

Note to Future Self: Solar Energy is overrated.

GREs

So its an hour or so before my GRE exam, and it appears that I'm my own worst enemy. I just took my post-studying evaluation test and ended up getting the same score as before I started studying. Kinda funny XD

Lyric of the Day:
"So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
Because I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have"
-Rise Against:"Savior"

Random Story of The Day:
Last night I had a priority conundrum. Get sleep before my test or stay up and make strudel. I went to sleep after a hard-fought internal battle :P

Note to Future Self: Deadlines suck.

Chivalry is dead, and Loyalty is on the chopping block

[insert deep over-thought essay involving commentary on society and our current economy]

Lyric of the Day:
"I'm all ears and I'm all scars
to hear you tell me "Boy's like you, you try too hard
to look not quite as desperate". I'm hanging on.
But I still know the way to make your makeup run."
-Fall Out Boy:"The Patron Saint of Liars and Fakes"

Random Story of The Day:
When we were playing Halo, I could not for the life of me get a kill. I would put 20 bullets into someone, and then a teammate would steal my kill. I was essentially the Steve Nash of Halo.

While playing Halo:
Dude: "I guess that is what sex must feel like"
Other Dude: "That's like an 'end the night' phrase right there"

Note to Future Self: You were once speechless, and it was exhilarating.

Weekends in the summer

This weekend felt like how I wanted my entire summer to be. On Friday I went out with a couple of friends in DC. Clubbing is one of those things that you build up in your mind, but ends up to be not as fun as it is in your head. Whatever, good company made it pretty fun anyway. After that I came back and hung out with a couple of my neighbors who are getting ready to move out. Its funny how you don't appreciate having people around until they are gone. Seeing people outside of work is also pretty awesome :P

Saturday was a Potluck with a bunch of people from college, and a couple HS friends. It is kinda odd being the only one of my friends from HS who did not end up being in a steady relationship in college. It was pretty great meeting everyone's GFs, and reconnecting with all the people who had spent their summer abroad. Winning settlers using a Monopoly card was sweet.

Sunday was just hanging out playing games with new people. It reminded me how glad I am to be in college still, and how scared I am of the real world. Maybe I should just go to grad school :D

Lyric of the Day:
"Shut up and put your money where your mouth is
That's what you get for waking up in Vegas
Get up and shake the glitter off your clothes, now
That's what you get for waking up in Vegas"
-Katy Perry:"Waking up in Vegas"

Random Story of The Day:
One of my friends threw a party so that this guy she was interested in would be able to come over in a more casual situation. It turns out that he was busy, so it turned out to be just ten of us having ridiculous fun. Good times.

Note to Future Self: Drink more often. That might need different punctuation XD

Ghosts of future pasts

When I look back at this part of my life I feel like I will have far too many regrets.


But then again there is so much I have done. I guess its just impossible to do everything.

Lyric of the Day:
"By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Says it's funny how the night
Can make you blind
I can just imagine
And I don't know what I’m supposed to do
But if she feels bad then I do too
So I let her be"
-Rob Thomas:"Her Diamonds"

Random Story of The Day:
We were out at a pizza place, when we started talking about funny date stories.

My friend was asked out by this guy in high school. When he called to ask when he should pass by, she told him she would just meet him at the place. Her mom overheard her, and told her to change it so he would pick her up. My friend has to call the guy back and changed plans.

Her picked her up and took he to a movie. When they went into the theater, he refused to buy popcorn, choosing instead to give her gum he brought in. As the movie went on, he tried the "wide yawn move". Needless to say this experience may have stopped her from dating for a while...

Note to Future Self: A Michael Jackson-based musical. When it comes out, you called it.

Inspiration

Across the Universe is a pretty awesome movie. I'm surprised there hasn't been more rock musicals after it came out. Maybe I should figure out one. But after I decide if PV cell research in Australia is what I want to do with my life.

Lyric of the Day:
"Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise
Da da da, da da"
-Pink:"Please don't leave me"

Random Story of The Day:
Types of Drunks I have encountered:
- Belligerent Drunk
- Friendly Drunk
- Sleepy Drunk
- Philosophical Drunk
- The "I'm not drunk" Drunk
- Fake Overacting Drunk

Note to Future Self: People rarely want the truth, and even less uncompromising truth.

Though we try so hard just to make it better, there is always blood.

I am just a boat,
floating on a vast ocean,
without a compass.

Haiku post.

Lyric of the Day:
"It all comes down
to sex or love.
I hate to choose"
-The Static Age:"Trauma"

Random Story of The Day:
Switching from stories that I would like to keep "just in case". Here is one I hope I never have to use.
My friend was interested in this girl, and they were friends. They decided to take a class together. Things were fine until she and her friend decided that they should have him take notes for them when they didn't show up for class. They started getting bitchy with him for not having the notes the way they wanted, and it basically ruined their friendship. The icing on the cake? She was always up on his floor yelling at him, until one day he couldn't find her for notes a day he missed class. He found her in the bedroom of the guy across the hall...

Note to Future Self: You think too much.

The World is on Fire

The world is retarded. For every Fox News, there is a Huffington Post. For every Heritage Foundation, there is a Heartland Institute. People ignore the Iranian election and report on Letterman talking about Palin's daughter. This is madness, and not the kind that gets you free spells.

Lyric of the Day:
"Say that it isn't so
How she easily come, how she easy go
Please don't tell her cause she don't really need to know.

That I'm crazy like the rest of us
And I'm crazier when I'm next to her."
-Jason Mraz:"Please Don't Tell Her"

Random Story of The Day:
Continuing my previous idea of telling stories that may be good to have in hindsight, I give you the best breakup story.

My friend's GF was going to study abroad for nine months. Not wanting to be a burden to her while she was away, he told himself he would break up with her and if she was single when she came back they could consider dating again. Two days after their "breakup" he was skyping her at eight in the morning. After two visits to her in Europe, and the most ridiculous care packages I have ever seen(one including a CD of him singing/playing a song from Wall-E), it looks like they are still together :P

Note to Future Self: Supreme Court Justices can legislate from the bench...