Racey Days, once again

Applying for grants and grad schools is actually taxing. I've been rolling through this semester carefree for the most part, but these applications are kind of important. Doesn't help that my procrastination has led to a two-test week when NSF is due. At least next semester will be awesome.

Lyric of the Day:
"Control yourself,
Take only what you need from it"
-MGMT:"Kids"

Random Story of The Day:
Today in my controls class we have an exam(actually in 15 mins). I'm in the room early looking over my notes, so I decide to put on my headphones and listen to music. Only problem was that I didn't plug in my headphones. And I didn't realize that they were unplugged. I just blasted MGMT in a class of studying engineers for like 10 minutes.

Note to Future Self: Sometimes you just need to see different people.

Dead Tired

Saw James Joyce's The Dead. It was extremely good, but maybe I'm just a sucker for musicals or well organized plays or a combination of the two. I guess I enjoy insightful, yet poignantly depressing performances.

Now I have to take and exam and finish a homework. Then start a bunch of scholarship applications.

On the plus side I';m heading up to Baltimore tomorrow to see The Used. I guess things aren't all bad.

Lyric of the Day:
"Well, you can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold
You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold
You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin, yeah
Now you just say, 'Oh, Romeo, yeah, you know
I used to have a scene with him'"
-The Killers:"Romeo and Juliet"

Random Story of The Day:
Today I got a text from my friend inviting me to see a movie. As I got excited and got dressed, I called to get details on when we were leaving. I called her phone, but it went straight to voice mail. I double checked the message and realized that the text was two hours old, and the last show was starting in five minutes.

Note to Future Self: Stop getting excited every time WOTC has a job opening in the design department.

The search continues

I have to figure out where/what I'm doing. But at least I'm a productive procrastinator.

Lyric of the Day:
"So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down"
-Jay Sean: "Down"

Random Story of The Day:
Apparently some guy was in our campus library masturbating in front of students. He was arrested after ejaculating on this girl's back while she was studying. If someone came on me I would just be confused.

Note to Future Self: Big Blue is it, kid.

Destiny is calling me

I'm at a part of my life where I'm not sure what to do. Grad school or a job? Stay here or get the hell out of this region? Am I in it to win it?

At least I know that I'm a concrete random learner. Or I think I am.
Lyric of the Day:
"Coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all"
-The Killers:"Mr. Brightside"

Random Story of The Day:
Today at work we played "I love my neighbour". I was the only person who stood up when my co-worker said "I love my neighbour who has a drinking problem". FML

Note to Future Self: Voice your opinions. Being passive-aggressive is lame.

Disney and Marvel

So apparently sometimes you should just follow the Little Mermaid song. It works for everyone else it seems.

Lyric of the Day:
"Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on"
-Journey:"Mignight Train"

Random Story of The Day:
Continuing my previous cute couple story thing...

One of my college friends was working on biology homework until five in the morning. When she was done, she decided to go to sleep and picked her stuff up of the floor. A guy who was taking the same class and was a pretty good friend was on her bed with his text book. In her exhausted state, she decided that he would leave if she kissed him on the cheek. As she went for his cheek, due to height differences and a miscalculation on her part she ended up kissing dangerously close to his lips. After a moment of confusion he responded "I thought you were more demure". They've been going out for the past two years, and it all started with an accident :P

Note to Future Self: Grab rebounds, like Shaq.

Perspective

Today I caught up with Yohance. It seems like as time has gone on we end up seeing less and less of each other, but I'm glad our friendship persists.

Lyric of the Day:
"Memories fade,
like looking through a fogged mirror
Decisions to decisions are made and not fought
But I thought,
this wouldn't hurt a lot.
I guess not"
-MGMT: "Kids"

Random Story of The Day:
My friend and I were talking about sports teams.

Me: Shaq in Pheonix last year was a mistake.
Him: Yeah, but you know Lebron better get a ring this year or he's leaving.
Me: Yeah. Did you hear that Big Ben went to Detroit?
Him: Wait, Big Ben?
Me: Yeah, Ben Wallace is back with the Pistons.
Him: Oh, I thought you meant Ben Rothelsberger.
Me: Does Detroit even have a football team?
Him: Uh yeah, the Lions still count.

(Last Year the Lions did not win a game. This was an NFL record for least wins.)

Note to Future Self: Solar Energy is overrated.

GREs

So its an hour or so before my GRE exam, and it appears that I'm my own worst enemy. I just took my post-studying evaluation test and ended up getting the same score as before I started studying. Kinda funny XD

Lyric of the Day:
"So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
Because I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have"
-Rise Against:"Savior"

Random Story of The Day:
Last night I had a priority conundrum. Get sleep before my test or stay up and make strudel. I went to sleep after a hard-fought internal battle :P

Note to Future Self: Deadlines suck.

Chivalry is dead, and Loyalty is on the chopping block

[insert deep over-thought essay involving commentary on society and our current economy]

Lyric of the Day:
"I'm all ears and I'm all scars
to hear you tell me "Boy's like you, you try too hard
to look not quite as desperate". I'm hanging on.
But I still know the way to make your makeup run."
-Fall Out Boy:"The Patron Saint of Liars and Fakes"

Random Story of The Day:
When we were playing Halo, I could not for the life of me get a kill. I would put 20 bullets into someone, and then a teammate would steal my kill. I was essentially the Steve Nash of Halo.

While playing Halo:
Dude: "I guess that is what sex must feel like"
Other Dude: "That's like an 'end the night' phrase right there"

Note to Future Self: You were once speechless, and it was exhilarating.

Weekends in the summer

This weekend felt like how I wanted my entire summer to be. On Friday I went out with a couple of friends in DC. Clubbing is one of those things that you build up in your mind, but ends up to be not as fun as it is in your head. Whatever, good company made it pretty fun anyway. After that I came back and hung out with a couple of my neighbors who are getting ready to move out. Its funny how you don't appreciate having people around until they are gone. Seeing people outside of work is also pretty awesome :P

Saturday was a Potluck with a bunch of people from college, and a couple HS friends. It is kinda odd being the only one of my friends from HS who did not end up being in a steady relationship in college. It was pretty great meeting everyone's GFs, and reconnecting with all the people who had spent their summer abroad. Winning settlers using a Monopoly card was sweet.

Sunday was just hanging out playing games with new people. It reminded me how glad I am to be in college still, and how scared I am of the real world. Maybe I should just go to grad school :D

Lyric of the Day:
"Shut up and put your money where your mouth is
That's what you get for waking up in Vegas
Get up and shake the glitter off your clothes, now
That's what you get for waking up in Vegas"
-Katy Perry:"Waking up in Vegas"

Random Story of The Day:
One of my friends threw a party so that this guy she was interested in would be able to come over in a more casual situation. It turns out that he was busy, so it turned out to be just ten of us having ridiculous fun. Good times.

Note to Future Self: Drink more often. That might need different punctuation XD

Ghosts of future pasts

When I look back at this part of my life I feel like I will have far too many regrets.


But then again there is so much I have done. I guess its just impossible to do everything.

Lyric of the Day:
"By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Says it's funny how the night
Can make you blind
I can just imagine
And I don't know what I’m supposed to do
But if she feels bad then I do too
So I let her be"
-Rob Thomas:"Her Diamonds"

Random Story of The Day:
We were out at a pizza place, when we started talking about funny date stories.

My friend was asked out by this guy in high school. When he called to ask when he should pass by, she told him she would just meet him at the place. Her mom overheard her, and told her to change it so he would pick her up. My friend has to call the guy back and changed plans.

Her picked her up and took he to a movie. When they went into the theater, he refused to buy popcorn, choosing instead to give her gum he brought in. As the movie went on, he tried the "wide yawn move". Needless to say this experience may have stopped her from dating for a while...

Note to Future Self: A Michael Jackson-based musical. When it comes out, you called it.

Inspiration

Across the Universe is a pretty awesome movie. I'm surprised there hasn't been more rock musicals after it came out. Maybe I should figure out one. But after I decide if PV cell research in Australia is what I want to do with my life.

Lyric of the Day:
"Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise
Da da da, da da"
-Pink:"Please don't leave me"

Random Story of The Day:
Types of Drunks I have encountered:
- Belligerent Drunk
- Friendly Drunk
- Sleepy Drunk
- Philosophical Drunk
- The "I'm not drunk" Drunk
- Fake Overacting Drunk

Note to Future Self: People rarely want the truth, and even less uncompromising truth.

Though we try so hard just to make it better, there is always blood.

I am just a boat,
floating on a vast ocean,
without a compass.

Haiku post.

Lyric of the Day:
"It all comes down
to sex or love.
I hate to choose"
-The Static Age:"Trauma"

Random Story of The Day:
Switching from stories that I would like to keep "just in case". Here is one I hope I never have to use.
My friend was interested in this girl, and they were friends. They decided to take a class together. Things were fine until she and her friend decided that they should have him take notes for them when they didn't show up for class. They started getting bitchy with him for not having the notes the way they wanted, and it basically ruined their friendship. The icing on the cake? She was always up on his floor yelling at him, until one day he couldn't find her for notes a day he missed class. He found her in the bedroom of the guy across the hall...

Note to Future Self: You think too much.

The World is on Fire

The world is retarded. For every Fox News, there is a Huffington Post. For every Heritage Foundation, there is a Heartland Institute. People ignore the Iranian election and report on Letterman talking about Palin's daughter. This is madness, and not the kind that gets you free spells.

Lyric of the Day:
"Say that it isn't so
How she easily come, how she easy go
Please don't tell her cause she don't really need to know.

That I'm crazy like the rest of us
And I'm crazier when I'm next to her."
-Jason Mraz:"Please Don't Tell Her"

Random Story of The Day:
Continuing my previous idea of telling stories that may be good to have in hindsight, I give you the best breakup story.

My friend's GF was going to study abroad for nine months. Not wanting to be a burden to her while she was away, he told himself he would break up with her and if she was single when she came back they could consider dating again. Two days after their "breakup" he was skyping her at eight in the morning. After two visits to her in Europe, and the most ridiculous care packages I have ever seen(one including a CD of him singing/playing a song from Wall-E), it looks like they are still together :P

Note to Future Self: Supreme Court Justices can legislate from the bench...

24 Hours in the life

Earlier today I hung out with my friend for his birthday. Its amusing to me that kids who go to a top tier school get their kicks by drinking in the parking lot of a mall. Well at least that made them easier to beat in laser tag(Number 3 on the winning team :D). Karaoke is a ton of fun, and I'm glad I got to hang out with my friends before they leave for the summer.

I just came back from the first Hindu prayers that I have been to for a while. I think Dogma had it right, faith is a glass that needs to be periodically refilled. Everytime I go to a place of worship, be it a temple or a church, I find myself feeling spiritually fulfilled. But even as satisfying as that is, I guess I feel pulled towards feeling the chaos in the world than living contently.

Lyric of the Day:
"Tell your boyfriend,
if he's got beef,
That I'm a vegetarian,
and I ain't fucking scared of him"
-3oh!3:"Don't trust me"

Random Story of The Day:
Today I learned a new drinking game. Watch Mulan, and drink every time they say "Huns" or "Man". "Someday I'll make a man out of you" will pretty much destroy you :P

Note to Future Self: Law school?

Airport Internet

So, I’m at the airport waiting for my flight. Thanks to Southwest’s comfy chairs with electrical outlets, I have my laptop in commission. I even have internet access so this can be posted when I'm done writing!

Today I go back to Maryland. This has been a pretty good break. Even though I missed a couple of possibly crucial phone calls, getting away from last semester was necessary. When I get back, I have a ton to do, including staying with my grandparents, and hanging out with people who are leaving for Europe, and who got back.

I'm even looking forward to going back to the lab. Summer means I can be ridiculously productive, heck I may even be able to cite my mom :D

Lyric of the Day:
"Lets get this party started right,
Lets get drunk and freaky fly,
You with me so its alright,
We gonna stay up the whole night."
-Justice:"The Party"

Random Story of The Day:
For a while, I’m going to be doing a little something different. In case any of the couples I know in college ever get married, I’m going to start putting up amusing stories about them. That was I have a funny story for the wedding :D

One of my friends met this guy in one of her classes. He asked her if she wanted to come with him and “a couple of his friends” to see a movie. Being a cautious person, she asked her roommate if she would come with her to see the movie.

After word trickled to the rooms next door (and to friends who lived even on the top and second floors of the building), a lot of people realized that we all wanted to see that movie. We asked if we could come, and our friend, being the nice person that she is, told us that it probably wouldn’t be a big deal if we all came.

When we got to the theater, she got a call from the guy saying that he was at a restaurant nearby, and that she should join for a pre-movie dinner. As our group walked to the restaurant, I realized something. Dinner and a movie? This kind of felt like a date…

When we got to the restaurant, we met up with the guy who was sitting with his best friend. It turned out that he thought that she was bringing a friend. Our group of eight people accompanied our friend on her first date with this guy :P

Note to Future Self: You once had a list of ten possible jobs. Remember when you had no idea of what you were going to do?

Back Home: Part 4

Yesterday I watched Ghost Town and played Valkyrie Chronicles. Its a pretty fun game, too bad its only on ps3 :'(

Today is Vik's graduation. Its kind of weird seeing my little brother getting ready for college. I hope they are ready for him :P

Lyric of the Day:
"I'm in love with a fairytale
Even though it hurts.
'Cause I don't care if I lose my mind
I'm already cursed. "
-Alexander Rybak:"Fairytale"

Random Story of The Day:
My little brother once took a running leap to catch the garter at a wedding. He was 16 at the time.

Note to Future Self: 23 credits of A. That's all I'm saying.

Back Home: Part 3

Went to the beach today. It was pretty fun, though even after my shower I still smell saltwater. When we got back home I watched Taken(which was better than I gave it credit for), and the Curious Case of Benjamin Button(less awesome than I thought it would be). Sounds like the Eastern Conference championship might be up for grabs, with the Magic actually giving Lebron James a fight for his money. That could be interesting.

I actually checked my grades on Blackboard, and so far I have six As. While I'm still waiting for two more grades back, the fact that I could pull of a 23 credit semester while working 3(?!) part-time jobs is pretty exciting. Too bad it looks like next semester will be more of the same.

Which I guess is fine, because I.am.pulling.it.off!

Lyric of the Day:
"And all I (all I)
Need to know (need to know)
Is that I'm something you'll be missing
(is that I'm something that you're missing)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that..."
-Taking Back Sunday:"You are so Last Summer"

Random Story of The Day:
I was telling one my friends(who I haven't seen in far too long) about the wreck that was me during finals. My post-final destressing involved me finishing a bottle of wine with a friend, watching Angels and Demons with her, and making homemade pizza with her.

Him: So look who found himself a girlfriend in college.
Me: We're not going out.
Him: Wait, really?
Me: Yeah....why?
Him: You had more dates in the past week than my girlfriend and I have had this past month.
Me: They weren't dates. We were just hanging out.
Him: Whatever, just don't tell my GF is all I'm saying.

Addendum: Frikin spellcheck. Destressing is a word.

Note to Future Self: After freaking out about your "worst semester" you somehow managed to pull off better grades than freshman year. You slacker bastard.

Back Home: Part 2

Today I watched Role Models and Mrs. Doubtfire. I also met our neighbors. They are pretty nice people, though it seems the entire family(4 brothers, 2 sisters) just had daughters.

I've started looking at stuff for the GREs, but I'm not as concerned as I should. I gues getting this far in my life has killed the need to aspire that was the driving force for me through high school. Is it better to be driven or to be happy with what you are doing?

If my roommate asked that question I would totally be a dick and say you have to weight the opportunity costs in something that situational.

Lyric of the Day:
"Dig deeper.
Remember all you've been and all you've left behind.
Wave goodbye, my dear.
Dig deeper.
Remember all you've been and all you've left behind.
Welcome home, my dear."
-Coheed and Cambria:"The End Complete III: The End Complete"

Random Story of The Day:
I was looking up random articles on CNN, the BBC, and the Times when my friend IMed me. As I was about to switch from tabs in Mozilla, the article loaded. I was reading an article on the hell that is becoming a doctor when my pre-med friend IMs me XD

Note to Future Self: This summer was supposed to be it.

Back Home

So, the FL chronicles begin anew. The day of my flight, I was @ Chris's until 4am. Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do.

First day here I had steak and potatoes for dinner. Twice. I also started watching Kings, which is a great show.

Day 2 was finishing off Kings, and playing PS3. I got farther in my DS games. Dinner was wings with the little brother.

Day 3 was watching "Marley and Me" and "Bedtime Stories". Both movies I got a kick out of. Too bad when they came out I was swamped with work. I also got a new haircut. My mom made macaroni pie and I had some deer salami.

Lyric of the Day:
"I went to a shrink
To analyze my dreams
She says it's lack of sex
That's bringing me down

I went to a whore
He said my life's a bore
So quit my whining cause
it's bringing her down"
-Green Day:"Basket Case"

Random Story of The Day:
My brother and I went to Buffalo Wild Wings to hang out. When taking our order the waitress seemed unintentionally critical of my order as she confirmed our order.

Her: "So its one order of Jalepeno Mango Wings, and one of Honey BBQ...You guys realize that the Honey BBQ has no pepper, right?
Me: Yeah, I cant stand pepper.
Her: And a root beer and a Hurricane?...You do realize that that is a girl drink, right?
Me: Yes. Yes, I do realize that.
Her: Well your order will be ready in about ten minutes.

I need a more badass palette.

Note to Future Self: Having your blog is kinda like the scrapbook in Marley and Me. Good Idea.

I'll be better when I'm older

I've realized that the longer I'm in college the more I change as a person. But going back to things the way they were before is easier than I would like for somethings, and harder for others. I've been fairly good about shutting in my inner yellow(mainly because it comes with some black), but it seems that whenever I'm stressed it comes back. I wish it were that way with my conviction.

I had this great discussion with a friend about what it means to be Catholic, and his amusement at my leaving the church because of the new pope was refreshing. Having a difference between how you live and how you expect others to live is an idea that i think I have trouble accepting because of my belief in the idea of the philosopher king. There shouldn't be dynamically different standards for different people, should there?

Lyric of the Day:
"And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above"
-Edwin McCain:"I'll Be"

Random Story of The Day:
One of my friends loves the movie My Sassy Girl. Her roommate didn't remember it being as great or romantic as she was making it out to be.

My friend rationalized it: "Well that last time you saw this movie was with your old roommate and her estranged boyfriend - not the best company for a romantic movie."

Note to Future Self: Pachabel's Canon is kind of romantic :P